small changes...

Perhaps this is too personal, but it is important. I have finally done something to help myself that could change my perspective on life in a very positive way. 

Recently I have been dragging through the day-to-day with little hope for the future. All I could see was an empty space full of negativity. I have supportive friends and family, but I would ignore their comments in favor of my own distorted reality.

I want to enjoy life and the moments I have with those around me. I no longer want to hate myself for every mistake I make. I know there was no reason for me to be so painfully self-critical, but I couldn't help it. I might be good for hours, days, maybe even weeks, but inevitably something would set me off again and again.

I won't go into more detail because it's all quite personal. It's a small change that's finally happened, and I know it won't be like a black to white transition, but I am hopeful things can be better in the future. Calmer, clearer, and brighter.

remy's adventure...

Remy I and recently test drove the 'come with me kitty' harness/leash again. The first time ended suddenly when he started to slip out of the leash (sneaky little pooper scooper). Since it's so damn hot outside I didn't want to try again, but I know its better for him to get used to it while he's still young.

With a more properly adjusted harness, I think Remy loved his trip outdoors. I have a nice grassy area with tall trees right out my apartment which is removed from the parking lot, and is perfect for a little cat to explore. It doesn't look too nice right now because the grass is dying, but usually it's pretty green. Also, I made sure he didn't eat the pine needles, I've heard cats are allergic.

He was so cute slinking around, then randomly laying down, then getting back up to check out more stuff. He also was more patient with me this time as I put on the harness, especially the second time I took him out today.